Dear Nana

A final message to you

I wasnt able to be there to see you to your final resting place, so I wrote this for you. It dosent even scratch the surface of how deep the love was. I am so grateful to my dad for reading this at your funeral for me.

I hope you are listening.

To my beautiful nana, Angie baby.

What a gem you truly were. You were an angel on this earth, always too good for this world. You were the most beautiful soul i have ever met and it breaks my heart to know your leaving because I know I will never meet another like you in this lifetime. You were and always will be completely irreplaceable.

You were such a fighter nana you have always had the strongest and biggest heart and I am so grateful for the years I got with you. I know you will live on forever in the hearts of the people you met and the lives you touched because that was the kind of person you were, unforgettable. You were such a light in everyone’s lives.

I can’t help but feel anger at the world for the cards you were dealt, but you took it in stride and fought for as long as you could. If this world was fair and rewarded the good people I just know you would have lived forever nan. It is probably selfish to say I wanted you to stay I wasnt ready to let go, I dont think I ever will be. I dont think anyone could ever really be ready to say goodbye to a person like you nan but you were finally ready to rest and I just know Granda PJ and Paula are waiting for you to come home to them, you kept them waiting long enough and I know they are missing you too. That gives me comfort knowing they are waiting for you and there will be no more suffering.

I love you with my whole heart and soul. I wouldn’t be half the person I am today without you and the influence you had on my life. You were always so gentle, kind, caring and patient a true lady, always. I will never forget you and your infectious laugh, you loved a good laugh and a joke, a right messer you were. I am going to miss you more than words can say and it breaks my heart that I’m not there to say goodbye but i know you are with me and our love is stronger than any distance.

I could go on forever, you really were so precious Nan. I will carry you in my heart all my life and I know you will always be with me.

Be at peace now. Tell granda and Paula how much we love and miss them too even though I’m sure they already know.

I love you forever and always, Nana.

I will see you when I get there for a big hug and a kiss. Lots of love, Ciara.